Oops i forgot o i cant sleep

"Mayra is Beautiful", words said by Mayra lol. anyways i didnt forget about my blogs just fell asleep or something caught my attention like always. anyways school is going good so far ive done all my hw, uh i got to play my video games again. however one thing that is weird is that i been going to sleep at 1 or 2 am everyday and i dont know why. right now im like not tired. well jsut a little but not enuff to go to sleep. idk wats going on. also noises come out of my stomach and i feel a slight discomfort where my heart is. it feels likes its bubbling. anyways although i started getting happy with school,the military just doesnt let me go. idk why the reason is anymore! i do know that since ppl dont want me to go to the marines if i join the military it will be the air force, and if i do its because of the money for school that i will need when i go to med school. thats all i know so far. idk why it bugs me, wth is wrong wit me? do i need to get laid? lol! anyways ameen got his own blog today and he wrote about me lol. SORRY AMEEN IF I DIDNT MAKE IT ALL ABOUT YOU LMAO jk ill write another one for you. its jsut i skipped like a day or two and need to make up for it. anyways night pplz going to watch scrubs or something

HMM and yea

so today homework stress was very unnecessary. i had a take home midterm to do and a guy from class actually took advantage of my new will in school and told me our paper was due today. little asshole lied lol. and as for my midterm i hadnt finished it and it turns out our teacher extended it.... man! im happy but fuck! i could have done other things LOL! anyways. today was koo wen i got home i talked to mayra and we want to travel to all 50 states and take pictures in every state in a way to stereotype each one LOL like texas and cactus you know all that stuff. anyways i'm surprised i haven't written about this. actually only 3 of my friends know. but i really like her.... shes very funny and beautiful and she is very wise. i like her alot but what sucks is i cannot act on my feelings. she has not only moved to texas. but she is such a great friend to me and i have alot of fun talking to her, and well i don't wanna lose that..... when she would ask me who i liked? i would say its complicated. and i still do...its only that way cause its her i like .... anyways... life... crazy.... love.... dance.... lol.... HAHA man... life has so many ups and downs. and life is crazy. /sigh..... guilt...... aHHHHH anyways i aint tired but i got a midterm peace!

This weekend

So this weekend was completely random mainly just saturday. I was on the phone with my friend and well at like ten she got sleepy and i let her go. then my homie called and asked if i wanted to go for a cruise. anyways we drive for like 2 hours we eat jsut cruising. then we get some beers drink em. and were buzzed so we go to a club like at 12 or 1. i didnt expect anything but i had so much fuckin fun. we bought drinks met some ppl DANCED (i like to dance) and while iwas there dancing i realized how fun i was having and i guess with that fun my mind at the moment was telling me "see abel there is still happiness out there. i honestly had a badass time going out wit my friend. i get happy from seeing people happy. anyways my pursuit of happiness, you know im trying to recover from everything that has happened since i have come down here, is starting to look better. im trying harder in school now and im trying to take it serious, i am starting to have fun, and i am now expressing my feelings on my blog. I will for sure try to write everynight or whenever something pops up. i literally had about a million thoughts i wanted to write but this is a good sum up haha. anyways good night ppl PEACE!

Wise ppl

Don't worry, be happy. - Bob Marley

We accept the love we think we deserve. - The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Holding on to anger, resentment and hurt only gives you tense muscles, a headache and a sore jaw from clenching your teeth. Forgiveness gives you back the laughter and the lightness in your life. - Joan Lunden

If you want your life to be more rewarding, you have to change the way you think. - Oprah Winfrey

To accomplish great things, we must dream as well as act. - Anatole France

Hope is a waking dream. - Aristotle

You see things; and you say, 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say, "Why not?" - George Bernard Shaw

Dreams come true. Without that possibility, nature would not incite us to have them. - John Updike

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want. - Ben Stein

We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give. - Sir Winston Churchill


These peoples words are going to be the inspiration for my new life.....
I need to grow up and love and appreciate everything i have.
I am sorry for all the people that i have wronged..... i hope everyone can forgive me for everything bad i ever did. I want to live a new life and if you are my friend or a person who has forgivin me, plz i invite you to live life with me.